Saturday, October 2, 2010

I still don't understand you

I don't understand you. What is so hard in respecting someone's wishes? This same thing that destroyed our friendship, yet you are still doing it. Not that it's a big deal in the grand scheme of things. I don't crave or need anonymity like i used to. The time when i needed my space, you didn't give it to me so i'm not surprised. I'm aware i blog and chose to put a part of myself out there for anyone in the world to see, so essentially it's a free for all, and i can handle that. I am also aware that you (and others who might know me personally) read my blog, so anything i put on here is stuff i won't mind anyone reading. The things that are important to me and close to my heart will never make it to this blog and i'm okay with that.

I still don't understand you and i have accepted that i never will. I have mourned the loss of our friendship cos at a certain time of my life, u were the closest person to me but i guess reading my blog and drawing the wrong conclusions from it meant more to you than our friendship. At that time, 98% of what i wrote on my blog, you already knew first hand from me, but it wasn't enough. Were you reading, hoping that i will write something bad about you? Did you just want to catch me in a lie? What happened to trusting your friends? It would have been okay if you had admitted when i asked, but you denied it.

 I am over it, really. I guess i don't mind you reading it like i used to, but it just irks me sometimes when i see that you've been here and our friendship no longer exists because of it. Well, i put it up so anyone can read, so enjoy.
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