3 weeks of orientation is finally over!
I got to know my co-residents
(it was by force by fire)
We went canoeing,
spent two days and two nights in a different city
drove down to the mothership for a procedures workshop
suffered through the horrific EMR training at one hospital together
hung out and watched the basketball finals
went to the picnic, grad dinner and dinner with the chiefs together
dubbed ourselves the coolest residents amongst the "other" residents
in affiliated programs
Gave our group a nickname
Had pity parties at various times over the never ending orientation
Teased each other both in person and in group texts
It's amazing what 3 weeks of forced daily all day contact
would do to a group of people
We actually like each other.
Thank God for that!
Tomorrow i will be thrown to the wolves.
I have gone from feeling dread
to being excited.
I dreamt it
Worked my ass off
I made it!
Against all odds
through blood, sweat, copious tears
and never ending lamentations
I made it!
I freaking made it.
Jesus Halleluyah Christ!
"She believed she could, so she did!" - R.S Grey
There's a testimony in there guys
but this jollof rice i'm eating
won't free me to blog properly
One hand typing is not it.
Even when i was miserable and hated what i was doing
what i was passing through
feeling like i made a mistake
In my rare quiet moments
when i got a second to breath
I was always thankful
in my darkest hours
when i couldn't see beyond my nose
talkless of seeing any light at the end of the tunnel
There was always this distant, faded memory
of the girl who dreamt of
becoming a doctor
So she could change lives and put smiles on faces
"She stood in the storm, and when the wind did not blow her away, she adjusted her sails" - Elizabeth Edwards
I will walk into the hospital
The same person I was yesterday
but this time as
reporting for duty
Fuck what you heard!
"She's her mother's daughter, strong African woman"
-Me, myself and Sting
Maama I made it!
I am so proud of my mother.
She's the ultimate boss.
All that i am and all that i will ever be
i owe to her.
She's responsible for the foundation and
the core of my soul
I love and honor her!
"After a while I looked in the mirror and realized.... wow after all those hurts, scars, and bruises after all of those trials, I really made it through.
I did it.
I survived that which was supposed to kill me.
So i straightened my crown
and walked away
like a boss"
To all those who have read this blog and supported me, whether silently, or through comments and emails, my soul thanks you. Thank you. Wish me luck as i step from one journey unto the next.
P.S. Please be prepared for me to complain about intern year just as much as i complained about med school. While everything has changed, nothing has changed.