I am a Butcher

I amputated my first toe today. It was awesome. I've held down a leg before while it was being amputated with a guillotine below the knee, that was just gross. Seeing the legs (both, i only held down one) on the table separate from the body was freaky, but that was my first amp and i only held down the leg.

Today, I chop a toe off, then took out the first metatarsal bone. Like a boss!

PSA: If you have diabetes, please control your blood sugar.
If you are obese, try to lose weight...Weight loss cures HTN, Type II diabetes, Obstructive sleep apnea etc most likely because your obesity made you have these diseases. 
If you smoke, please stop smoking. Smoking doesn't only cause cancer. It also leads to peripheral vascular disease and could end up without limbs. #truth

The things you do to your body when you are young starts to catch up with you after 40.

What I am Watching on a Sunday Night

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Bella Naija Weddings

A lot of weddings (if not all) i see on Bella Naija are breathtakingly beautiful. The decor, locations, attires, even the people. So much pomp and pageantry, i won't lie, I love looking at them. I know Nigerians are into big weddings, but i have always wanted a small family and close friends wedding of about 50 people, but i would love it to be elegant. But that's not the point of this impromptu post.

I was just on Linda Ikeji and she has a post about some Chima guy getting married and she mentioned he was briefly married to someone else in 2011  and there was a link which my amebo self couldn't pass up. I don't know who Chima is or why he is important, but i was curious as to the 2 marriages in 2 yrs thing. The link took me to Bella Naija. I remember that feature cos the bride was so pretty and everything was on point. I was just like wow, after obviously spending so much money, the marriage did not even last and he is back to marrying someone else so soon? Well, it's not of my business really but if i was a guy whose marriage just broke up i wouldn't rush to be shackled to someone else so soon. You don't want to keep repeating mistakes of the past, but that's just me. 

It just confirmed what i have always known, never envy anyone. I know lots of people who salivate over the Bella Naija weddings and want to have that. You see the beautiful couple, read their love story and your body just aches with longing and you "tap into their blessing". Be careful what you are tapping into. I have a friend who told me he can't get married until he can afford a Bella Naijaesque wedding and he wants a big production where roads are closed down and all of that . I told him he wasn't ready for life yet. I know it's different strokes for different folks, but my idea of how i want my wedding to be has always been something small and intimate. I want my closest friends and family to celebrate with me, not people i don't know from Adam.

Sadly, this is not the only Bella Naija wedding that has kicked the bucket. I still think she was a very beautiful bride and her dress and veil were lovely. Daz all!

Question

Hello friends, lovers, strangers....

What should i do with this blog?

People who have read my blog for a while know that i deactivate my account from time to time

usually when i want to concentrate on school

which is my main priority in life right now! 

The difference this time is that i don't want to blog anymore. 

 But I feel like if i don't come back now, i never will. 

I got a couple of emails that motivated me to put my blog back up

but 

I have nothing. 

The rotation i have been on since May 1st has been grueling

Long hours, little sleep, barely have time to eat, study, work out, or talk to people
I am in physical distress. 

My hair fell off around this time last year, when i was finishing off 2nd yr and studying for boards

It's falling off again

Then to have to deal with internet trolls on top of serious business, my future.....

I just couldn't/ can't do it. 

Having someone come to my blog, copy my post and 

paste it in the comment section of another blog

was the final straw. 

I was like, this shit is getting ridiculous

I wasn't ready to be about that life

I left just so i didn't add more stress to my life

Baseless accusations

A blog owner with no conscience or scruples

lack of objectivity, desire for popularity and favoritism are the order of the day

 It's frankly disgusting

I would LOVE to have the time to leave anonymous comments antagonizing people

That would mean i have free time. 

At least i can sleep through the night

I would LOVE to have the presence of mind to be aware that i have failed at blogging

and delete my blog so that i would more free time to leave hate comments for people

I didn't know we were being graded on our blogs. 

Give me an F in blogging and an A in medicine any day

How do you measure success? 

Is it by how much money you make or how much happiness you get out of what you do. 

I have always said when blogging is no longer fun

I will stop

I didn't think it would happen so soon. 

Blogging has been an outlet for me, free therapy

 a way to offload some of my thoughts and take a break from the stress of my life

It's not a source of livelihood for me and has never been intended for that purpose

I am trying to secure my future here, so i will happily fail at blogging.

I can be feisty, but i am not petty or mean spirited and i don't hold grudges

If you bother me too much, you cease to exist as far as i am concerned

I have no axe to grind with anyone

My brain is too full

Believe it or not, 

It amazes me when people email me to say they like my blog

Witty, is very frequently used as an adjective

I don't see it because 9 times out of 10, I shoot from the hip when i blog 

and i don't consider myself a particularly funny person. 

Although my brother laughs at everything i say o_O. You can ask him why.

So i feel like i have to consider the people who actually like reading my posts,

but at the same time i have to do it for me, 

unless it would be fake 

I have considered having two blogs, this one and a private blog

ditching this one completely or not just blogging anymore. 

Truth be told, i am kind of attached to this blog

She's been my road dog since 2008

She's my fourth blog lover but she's stuck with me the longest

If i say let me hold off until i have dealt with all d crap i have to deal with, 

I won't blog until next year. 

I still don't know what i want to do. 

To be honest, I think i am just super stressed out right now

cos i usually can't find a fuck to give

I does what i do

However, i would like to say that I am floored that people are happy to see me back. 

I wasn't thinking of that or expecting that. 

It always surprises me when i get emails from people telling me they like my blog

It means a lot to me and humbles me every time.

Thank you.

On that note, 

I am going to get out of this nasty ass scrubs

I love you guys, 

Bye!

*P.S Notice my new name? Otse means beauty. I had dropped the Sting initially and might end up with a complete new name. We'll see.
I have retired the Madam
Too many madams running around these days.
It has been bastardized. 

Perception Vs. Reality

Question
 
If a tree falls in the forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?

Let's Talk about the Touts on Wives Connection

I am going to write this post, then i think i am going to take a break from blogging and blogs for a while. I was SO tempted to delete my blog yesterday. People who have read my blog for a while know that i do that from time to time usually when i need to focus on school, but this time it would have been for a different reason.

Myne asked me not too long ago if i would stop blogging (or something like that) and i said no, because this is something i actually enjoy doing. However, in the very recent past i think this blog has gotten an expiration date. After the incident on Wives connection when some faceless coward made the comment about me being a trouble maker and you can only blame Ahdaisy if you don't know sting, i was just done. I don't need this. I really don't.

I stopped commenting on that blog because there seems to be a lot of touts, power rangers and minions who visit there and who have a follow-follow mentality. You need to be able to think for yourself and not just jump on a bandwagon. I still read the blog though because it is entertaining. I don't pretend to have answers to people's problems so why bother advising anyone. The only time i ever left a comment since that incident was for the lady whose husband had erectile dysfunction. It was a medical issue and since i have a bit of knowledge on that topic i left a comment.

I was reading the 2 face critique Eya posted yesterday and got to the comments and starting seeing people saying all sorts of crap about me. Ahdaisy was insinuating that i was the one who left a nasty comment for her, and did i not say i was never coming to that blog again (i guess she's the blog rep), and people jumping on the bandwagon and calling me out. I didn't even get to see some of  the nasty comments about Ahdaisy because Eya had deleted them before i got there, but all the comments mentioning me were still up there for my viewing pleasure. I am not a coward and really don't have the time to be leaving anonymous comments for anyone. Apparently, certain people don't like the Ahdaisy chic for whatever reason. I had a problem with ONE comment that she made, i said something about it, and she no longer exists to me. Why would i go and be anonymously leaving her comments. She's a non-issue. Trust me when i say that if i have something to say i will use my blog identity to say it. No one is feeding me, paying my med school tuition and i don't blog for money, so what's that deal here? I'm supposed to be sacred of some random chic who has her own blog but wants to die on someone else's blog? You are so good at giving advice, why don't you set up your blog to do that and maybe make something out of it? You see how people don't have common sense?

Those anonymous commenters who left her those comments should have enough integrity to come back and say they did it, and it wasn't Sting because i don't have time for all that nonsense or for someone who feels that she knows it all. I don't know it all and i don't pretend to, neither do i think i am better than anyone for any reason.

I was motivated to write this post for two reasons. Firstly,  i just read The Salt chronicles (Desperate Naija Woman) where she talked about moderating comments. Eya was the first person to comment on that post and that's why i decided to write this post. She knows the kind of touts that visit her blog because she solicited them from Linda Ikeji's blog, which is why during the MARRIED controversy when someone was mouthing off about how Linda Ikeji's commenters have found their way to Eya's blog, i thought that was laughable. How do you think i found out about Wives Connection? She was actively advertising on there.

Knowing the kind of people who visit your blog with the fact that you allow anonymous comments, doesn't that come with some sort of responsibility to at least moderate comments? Why am i being accused of something that i didn't do, yet you delete certain comments and leave others? If it's all in a bid to generate views and comments, that's fine. In all fairness, I will add that the comments about me were deleted after I sent her an email to complain.

Secondly, there's nothing i hate more than being accused of something i didn't do. As Eya did not address it, I have decided to. Believe me if you like, don't believe me if you like, that's not my problem. I have said what i have to say. Wives Connection touts, please find another target for your nonsense, leave my name out of your mouths and best believe that if i have a comment to make about your master, you will not have to guess who made it. 

Someone was just saying the other day that things have changed since people started blogging for money. This was not the blogging community i knew and liked being a part of. Even when there were disagreements, it wasn't this bad. There's just too much bad blood going around. You don't know who your enemies are. If my blog was something tangible i could pick up and take far away to where no one knows me, trust me i would. Maybe i would have some peace and enjoy blogging again.

I am just turned off by the whole atmosphere. I don't want any comments about this post. Anyone who doesn't like it can kindly kick rocks. I am taking a break and if it wasn't for Lazy grad student, i would delete this blog while i take my break.

Good thing our weight loss competition starts tomorrow. Let me focus my attention on something that is actually going to improve the quality of my life and not all this nonsense. One last chance to join.

P.S I know i called for peace the other day and hopefully this came across as a very peaceful message. Not a single cuss word, lol. I can't even be angry about stupid stuff anymore but that does not mean i will stand back and let people accuse me falsely. Life doesn't work that way, at least not in my side of town. :)