Saturday, April 11, 2015

It tried to murder me

Let's pretend i didn't promise to be a better blogger, respond to comments and create a blog list. Erase that from your memories because this blogging delinquency seems like it's going to be a chronic, unrelenting condition.

Do I have what to blog about? Yes, tons actually.

 Like how my bedroom ceiling collapsed at 11.01 pm last week Monday and I could have been seriously hurt or killed if i had not discovered Unbreakable: Kimmy Schmidt that night and stayed up late to watch it. It wasn't even that great of a show.Thank you, God of Netflix. I had a headache earlier that evening and instead of taking Tylenol, i intended to take a sleep aid just so i could sleep properly. Thankfully, i got side tracked by the show and never took any medication because i might have ended up having a seamless transition to the afterlife. God abeg o! I'm not ready. I am so thankful at how things turned out even with all the resulting inconvenience. The assistant manager who helped me out that night was amazed at how calm I was. I think i was in shock. From the initial ceiling crack to complete collapse took a total of 9 mins. I debated for a few seconds but I ran back in the room to get my computer and ipad off my bed. I just did a clean swipe of everything on my bed using my blanket but the computer charger decided to get caught underneath the bed frame, come and see yanking in fear. It was like a movie.

How I have been second guessing my rank order list and by default where i matched for residency. What was i thinking, Lord Jesus!!! I just have to accept that i made the right decision and i'm going where i will be happy for the next three years. Fingers crossed!

How I had one random anxiety attack triggered by the thought of having to leave my therapist and i called his voice mail and left a message crying and hyperventilating about it on a weekend. I got an "emergency appointment" the next day. This is me who goes in at least once every two months and straight up tells him I think i'm wasting my time by coming to see him because he's not helping. I'm like, i want a quick fix, i want it fixed now.  LOL.... I think i amuse him and I can tell he is fond of me. We have talked about me wanting to write a book in the past and i said that i don't count blogging as writing because i'm just talking (but in writing) and he told me that if i write the way i talk, it would be a good book. I asked him why he said that, and he said I say what i think exactly how i'm thinking it and it was very uncommon and refreshing. I took that as a compliment. Anyway, I think i'm struggling with change and fear of the unknown.

How i'm not ready for this doctoring thing and found it quite alarming when someone called me Dr. XYZ and seeing the M.D behind my name is just surreal for lack of a better word.

How i think my mother tricked me all these years into thinking she was this cool unafrican African mom who didn't care about me getting married but now she has flashed her true colors since i matched.
"Ok, mommy I will call you at 6pm so we can pray. What's my prayer point again? Thank you for fasting on my behalf, it is much appreciated."
"Oh, sorry i forgot to call you at 6 pm yesterday. Yes, i prayed. uh hum. I prayed"
Thankfully, it's just been a flash which quickly died down because i was already starting to get apprehensive about calling her. I can't be answering questions about praying and fasting everyday.
When i'm ready, i'll be signing up for

How i owe a very special blog friend a belated birthday post. But thanks to this slacking disease that i have been afflicted by plus being semi homeless for over a week plus one or two things, I never put up the birthday post and even forgot to wish him a happy birthday on his actual birthday. My dear, God has forgiven me, so please forgive me too.

 Anyway, since my apartment was trying to murder me and left me slightly traumatized, I decided to run home to my people, regroup, decompress, and forget about the mountain of paperwork for residency that is time sensitive (at least until Monday). Shey they said life is too short, they weren't playing.

P.S. So there's this thing called renter's insurance and i was supposed to have it. M'kay!

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

On Blogging

Hello friends, lovers and strangers!!!

Last year was not great for blogging and i think i'm still slacking this year. I actually have lost my blogging mojo but i'm going to start working to get it back. By fire, by force i must continue to blog.
I can't believe i am finally done with med school. People who have been reading for a while know when i started. It's all in my blog archives, feel free to dig through. I had multiple hiccups along the way, health issues, academic issues but i made it. I made it!!! It's slowly sinking in.

On match day, after my name was called, i went up to the podium and collected my envelope (my school doesn't make you read it aloud), i opened it and saw i matched in my first choice, I was just like oh! okay. No excitement,nothing. I ranked 20 programs in all and my first choice was always my first choice. Towards the deadline, i was wondering if i should make my second choice number one, but i didn't. I changed my rank order list at least 10 times, but i never changed my first choice. So you would think i would be excited, but it was just blah.

Then i started calling family and friends and they were all screaming excited, that's when i started becoming a bit excited. I've always suffered from delayed reaction. LOL. People always assume American medical graduates have it easy in terms of matching into residency, but things are changing. A good number of people did not match in my school this year. I think it's the highest number ever. The number of medical graduates are increasing, but residency spots are still the same. It's tough but i'll admit it's still tougher for foreign grads, although one of my friends who went to med school in naija matched into Emory for surgery this year. Whether people want to hear this or not, knowing people in a program helps. I thought that only existed in naija but that's not true.

I've decided to turn over a new blog leaf. I'm going to do my best to respond to comments and i promised a blog reader not to swear any more on my (i think it's getting better). I'm also going to work on my blog list that way i can start reading blogs again. If you have a blog you want me to add to my list, leave a comment, otherwise, i will start blog hopping and adding blogs.

I'm enjoying this free time, my brain is still in fight or flight mode, so i'm trying hard to relax. Within the last week, I caught up on Downton Abbey, started and finished Being Mary Jane and House of Cards. House of Cards??!!!! OMG, that evil Francis. I'm about to start Empire. I'm still on season one of Scandal, i'll watch that next. I'm enjoying my painting class. I was supposed to take Drawing II, but it was cancelled last minute, so i was bumped up to Painting I, even though Drawing I and II are prerequisites for Painting I. Painting requires a lot more patience than drawing. It frustrates me, but it's a good escape.

After everything is said and done, i'll gist you guys about my last rotation. Enjoy the rest of the week, people.

Saturday, March 21, 2015

Match Day

Hello friends, lovers and strangers!!! 
I matched into my first choice for residency
Everyone else is more excited than me
It's slowly sinking in
My program is in this gorgeous little city
I fell in love when i went there to interview
I'm looking forward to living there.
I'm the only melanin-rich resident in the entire program
I'm used to the minority thing
thanks to med school. 

Come July 1st
someone is actually going to expect me to be a Doctor?! 
It's too soon for me to be freaking out about it 
so i'm still chilling
So for now, if someone passes out and they say 
"is there a doctor around?"
I will be looking around just like everyone else. 

I'm working on losing weight for that yet to be bought graduation dress.
I actually have to buy two dresses. 
We have a hooding ceremony and a commencement ceremony
Thou shalt not be fat in graduation pictures
15th Commandment
14lbs down, many more to go! 
We celebrated at an Indian restaurant yesterday 
where all thoughts of a diet were temporarily forgotten,
As i downed two sweet mango Lassis 
and scarfed multiple chicken naan with chicken tikka masala

I'll worry about really learning how to read EKGs
sometime in the future
before July 1st

Monday, March 2, 2015

See sickness!

What's worse than having free time, 
zero responsibilities
being unable to relax?

This is what the elders would call
home problem. 
I tire for myself. 
Match day apprehension is not helping matters

Can anyone recommend naija movies? 
I like movies set in the village that are funny
No aki and pawpaw things
It would be highly appreciated

I have so much things i could be doing with my free time
but no peace of mind to do it. 
The whole last day of med school things
was pretty anticlimactic
as expected

I don't know what i'm doing with my life
to be honest
i remain thankful.

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Men preferring light skinned women over dark skin

Toke Makinwa needs to come and give this one lessons on how to make vlogs that make sense. This is a perfect example of good packaging but nothing upstairs. Serious intellectual deficiency is worrying this one. I don't know where bellanaija found him from, but him and his opinion are a big NO as far as i'm concerned. Just spewing garbage, can't even articulate his point. Jesus be some sense let me wack him on the head with it. Yes, don't bleach to please a man, but every other thing he said is OP. Which one is "men like bobi, big yansh".................smh.

Wednesday, February 4, 2015


Too much is going on. 
I'm on plastic surgery and my patience is already being tested....
by other med students on the team
Add that to the long crazy hours and 
actually having to be in the OR
I'm miserable. 
Tomorrow, i'm on an 8 hour long case......
 Looking forward to Feb 27th. 
My last day on this rotation 
my last day as a med student! 

Let's let that sink in.

What are you guys up to? 
Gist me.
Who don marry, who don born, who dey come and who dey go?
I haven't been reading blogs.
I really hope this month flies by. 
I hate surgery!
Hey guys, welcome to my blog. Sit back, relax, grab a cup of coffee and enjoy!

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