Saturday, June 25, 2011

Mind and Body = No likey

I'm going to talk about this once and i promise this will be the last you will hear about this from me. 2002 when i immigrated to this country, i weighed 115lb and looked like i weighed 100lbs and this was after i was put on cypron so i could increase my appetite and gain weight. 9 years later, I am now currently 159lbs (as of this morning). I was 153lbs last month and i know exactly how i made my way back to 159lbs. I've been entertaining myself by eating even though i want to lose weight. Anything over 150lbs is considered overweight for me according to the BMI thingy. Besides that, i have gotten to the point where i don't like my body. Bad!

The thing i hate most about everything is I DON'T WANT TO BE AMONG THE MILLIONS OF WOMEN IN AMERICA WHO ARE COMPLAINING AND BATTLING WEIGHT ISSUES. I don't want that to be my issue. I don't want to be on a diet and battle with food or have an unhealthy relationship with food. I generally don't have bad eating habits. I don't eat fast food, i hardly ever eat out, i don't drink soda at all, i can't remember the last time i ate a pizza, i hardly eat cookies or candy and i have never been on a diet not even when i did the weight loss blog competition (which is why i lost 2lbs the whole time). I am partial to cheesecake but i haven't had that since February. I just want to get my body back the way i like it and be done talking about weight. It's boring. I don't aspire to a certain weight or size but i want to look at my body and like it. That is all i want. Not everyone is meant to be skinny and i don't necessarily look good skinny which is why my mom was trying to fatten me up all those years, now she's telling me to lose weight. The irony.
I also don't want to exercise to try to lose weight. First of all, i know that weight loss is 80% what you eat and 20% exercise.  Although i am all too aware that exercise is GOOD for you so sooner or later i would have to jump on that but i want to do it because i'm living a healthy lifestyle and not to lose weight. What i'm trying to do is to learn how to eat right without feeling like i'm on a diet. I'm really not a vegetable eating person at all. I try sometimes with the mixed vegetables i buy from Walmart or Sam's but that's about it. I don't know what else to try or how to cook the multitude of vegetables that are out there.

It doesn't help that i don't have any examples. I watch food network all the time, and while most of the shows have yummy food, they are not exactly healthy. I don't want to be stuck eating oatmeal and brown rice everyday. It doesn't help that i have a stomach condition which shall remain nameless and there's a long list of things i can't eat. I can't even eat stew. Do you know what that means to a Nigerian? Well, it's not that bad. I just cook my rice in chicken broth and extra curry and it tastes good!

What's the point of this post? I'm frustrated. I just want it all to go away with little effort (which is not going to happen). I need healthy eating options. You know Nigerians are all about the rice but i don't want to have to eat rice EVERYDAY. I've switched from white rice to brown rice, no more cereal, just oatmeal, ditched meat for fish, boiled instead of fried plantains. I find that my stomach tolerates moi-moi better than straight up black eyed peas which gives me bad acid reflux but even with the moi-moi my stomach still hurts. Beans is the only food which gives me acid reflux so sadly, it's out. I need to introduce more healthy meals into my diet but i'm stumped. The only two fruits i can eat are Bananas and Pears. I'm not a 100% on the Pears but they are way better on my stomach than Strawberries, Apples, Mangos and Kiwis, all the fruits i like but can't have :(

I have exactly 2 months left of this once in a lifetime vacation (This is my last real vacation in med school, no one is getting 3 months off again). I want to stop being overweight and learn how to eat healthy consistently. So if you know any healthy food blogs or recipes i could try please let me know. I have to add that i have a very unrefined palate and i have always been a picky eater and it is now 10x worse because of my stomach issue. This is why i am frustrated.

I have vented
I feel better
I'm going to go drink some water :)


  1. Wish I could help. I want to add weight and it isnt happening. I find that the easiest way to lose even the little I have is eating small portions not enough times and/or forgetting to eat.

    Wanna try that?

  2. lol @ forgetting to eat. I can't forget to eat because that results in pain. I think smaller portions is the way to go. Thanks.

  3. Smaller portions has always worked for me, as well as consistent exercise. I also eat lots of fruits. I love Banana and eat like 4 a day sometimes for breakfast.

  4. Yes, drink some water because you need it.
    Achieving weight loss with little efforts? hmm!
    I do agree that some foods agrees better with your tommy than some that are considered healthy for weight loss- that makes you unique- keep trying other healthy options and eliminate the ones that offends you.
    This tip may help you-

    -make 50% of your every meal vegetales- you must not become a vegetarian.
    -eat 5-7 servings of fruits daily before meal and as snacks- this will help you control your portion size by curbing your desire for an extra helping of your favorite rice dish.
    -stay away from simple carbs- whole grain is a better friend.
    -stay physically active, walk, use the stirs, have fun dancing(my best)- you must not run the gym.
    -enjoy your chesecake sometimes without guilt- but don't over endulge.
    Dont forget to give updates on your weight loss journey. YES YOU CAN DO IT!

  5. You could try smaller portions of food. Another thing is *even though u don't like to work out* say maybe once a week? Lots of water instead of juice, and not all vegetarian dishes need to be vegetables. You could try tofu (really good if u make it nice), also potatoes - boiled or baked. Corn, cauliflower, sweet potatoes, pasta (there is wheat pasta as a substitute). Good luck - don't worry, you aren't the only one, i need to start getting onto a healthy lifestyle plan too!

  6. Thanks for the tips guys. I need to google what cauliflower looks like.

  7. Ha! can't help you here sister.. glad you feel better after venting it out.....i had battled with my weight right from childhood that i had given up & accepted my body & be comfortable with it...i dunno what is obtainable abroad becox here in 9ja, BIG BOLD & BEAUTIFUL women are having a ball with their low cuts, big loop ears, tops & jeans...& i tell you, they are not short of admirers, we have come to accept our body & not follow hollywood stereotype...some men like us just the way we are...after having my 4th child, i began losing weight, not consciously but becox of the wahala of taking care of the kids & running the home & i planted I.U.D which i was told 'dries' up some true DOCTOR STING, i dunno oo..hehehhee...i still eat as i want & like..take care..just be healthy is the main issue.

  8. I feel this post, i was actually feeling like this today


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