Disengage

I need to think, or rather i need to sort my thoughts out, so i came here. I want to give up! Throw my hands in the air and scream this is me, take me as i am or leave me, but i can't do that because i believe in self improvement. But while i am off improving myself, is it too much to ask for patience and understanding that changing habits and old ways of doing things is a long, hard process filled with relapses because old habits die hard. If you tell me that i need to work on something today, is it fair that you keep bringing it up every chance you get because the change is not coming fast enough for u. I wasn't born yesterday and I have been doing things this way for over 20 years, If i had a change switch i would use it, but i don't, so i need time.

When does criticism cross the line into emotional abuse? How can you say you like me, but don't seem to like anything about me? No one has ever told me i bring out the worst in them in my entire life. Were you just hitting below the belt? How can you blame me for your actions? Yes, i can do or say stuff that makes u angry, but why should i take responsibility for how you chose to react to me? I can't make you do or say anything you don't want to say or do. So now i have to take responsibility for my actions and yours also? I don't think it's fair that you ask me to do that. I can only be responsible for my actions.