Empathy?

As you may or may not know, my sister is a nurse. She texted me this evening that she just had a very interesting conversation with her patient. Long story short, said patient is supposed to be taking a vacation out of the country and in preparation for that she went and had lipo and transfered the fat to her butt. Can you people see what Kim K and Nicki Minaj have caused? The butt is now infected and she might not be able to go on this trip cos she's stuck in the hospital. The infected butt looks lumpy (I asked) and her skin is dimpled like an orange peel and if it doesn't get better, they might have to make an incision and drain it, which is worse for her cosmetically.

So of course i'm making jokes about it and laughing my ass off because i just think some Americans don't have their priorities straight. This is a classic case of first world problems. My sister was like she was just trying to feel good about herself and i said she no see wetin to do, na big yansh she dey find. I just couldn't feel sorry for her. Then my sister said i should learn to have empathy for my patients. I was like, nope, this is your patient, you have the empathy and i make the jokes. LOL.

Seriously guys, what is this world coming to? I know this is not new or news anymore, but even if you have a big butt, you are not the one seeing it. The last time i checked no one had eyes on the back of their head so how can a big butt make you feel good about yourself, if you have your priorities straight? She was perfectly fine, and just for cosmetic reasons, now she's in hot soup and i'm supposed to feel sorry for her? Am i just going to be a bad doctor with no empathy for my patients? Honestly, i know i have a soft heart and i might feel differently if she was actually my patient and i got to talk to her cos according to my sister, she's in a lot of pain and her stomach is swollen from the infection but i would still think she was stupid. Really stupid.

What is wrong with people. Seriously! Just stop it and get your head out your asses and stop being so shallow. This are the same people who like to ask, "does this dress make my butt look fat?" Pick one. Is a fat butt a bad thing or not? Like i said, first world problems and i have no empathy. Body dey sweet you, you go use your hand take find trouble.

*RIP to S. Obasanjo and many others. Na so she take find trouble off herself.

Light

Finally finished 3/4th of today's agenda and decided to take a break. Biochem is ........just! I don't know. Oh well. I want to share some things that keep me going through the craziness i have to deal with. Med school is hard but not everyone has the exact same experience. It all depends on how well you are doing in your classes, really. That pretty much determines how your semester is going to go in terms of stress. Last week was CRAZY! for everyone, i can't say that enough.  The fact that this is what i want to be doing with my life helps me get through it and keeps me going.

Joel Osteen is just great! Many times i feel like his message is directed towards me (and a million other people) It speaks to the exact situation i'm in or the thoughts i have. It's encourages me to keep my eyes on God and to keep fighting. I always thought that the hardest thing would be to get into med school but the hardest thing for me so far has been to stay in it.

I'll share some of the things which i have posted on my tumblr which have helped me and hopefully, it might help someone else get through whatever they are dealing with.

I really like this one.

Love this

One of my favorites.

Very true

I really like this one.

Favorite!!

My favorite quotes

• If you are going through hell, keep going - Winston Churchill

• What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compare to what lies within u- Ralph Waldo Emerson

• If you have come to the end of the rope, tie a knot and hang on - Franklin Roosevelt

• Activate faith instead of fear- Joel Osteen

*How do u like my new blog title? I love it!

33 Questions- Just cos i'm a Baus!

Today was supposed to be the first day of board prep, but i woke up with some serious body aches and pains. I guess that highway clean up activity was an exercise in poor judgment. I had not recovered from finals to begin with cos my body was aching like i had been run over by a truck as at Sunday morning when i woke up, yet i spent an hour and half walking down the high way picking trash. I didn't mind doing it, but my body obviously minded. I've been popping tylenol all day, to no avail, so i have semi given up on studying for now.

I'm going to do this tag thing that is going around cos i have been tagged by Ms.Ibhade, Myne and Adede, but i do not have the presence of mind to come up with questions or tag anyone.

11 random things about me

1. I cry when i'm extremely happy about something.
2. I went to two different all female schools for JSS and SSS. I liked my JSS better. The girls were more like family and less competitive bitches.
3. I used to write and draw but the last time i wrote or drew anything was 2008. In boarding school, people used to wait for my "novels". Life/trying to get into med sch/med school has dried up my creative juices. 
4. If i could only have one child, i would want it to be a girl.
5. I really enjoy watching Food Network and that's the only thing i miss about not watching TV. Yesterday was the first time i turned on my TV this year.
6. I love looking at pictures of beautiful, sexy food but oddly enough it never makes me feel like eating it. I just like looking at pictures of food. 
7. Friendships are all or nothing for me. If i don't like you, i won't deal with you in any capacity. If i don't trust you, i won't deal with you. Frenemies have no place in my life. I can count my friends on one hand. 
8. I can't deal with people stress and i don't suffer fools gladly. I'm beginning to think i can't handle too much stress, period. I have a bald patch right on top of my head from when my hair fell off within the last month due to stress. I was horrified when my friend took a picture of it and and showed me. It's called Telogen effluvium. 
9. I can get really pissed off and curse someone out within an inch of their lives but my anger never lasts more than a day. My bark is a lot worse than my bite. You just have to know me to know that. 
10. I have a high need for cognition.
11. I may or may not have developed an anxiety disorder in med school. 

Questions from Ibhade

1)What hairstyle are you currently rocking? 99%-100% of the time, i am rocking my natural permed hair. I am considering getting braids though or going natural. I don't know anymore. I want to shave my head sometimes.

 2)How long did you spend in primary school? 6 years 

3)What is your naughtiest moment ? I went to boarding school so i can think of a few. In JSS 2, this senior sent me and my friend to go get her some drinking water in her bottle and she was quite nasty about it. You know the way seniors are. So we went and got her water :) To be quite honest, i don't remember exactly whose idea it was (probably mine), we decided to add some spit in the water and shake it up really good and we did. We gave it to her and watched in satisfaction as she drank it. I'll just share this one, before you guys think i am a devil, which i was :) 

4)How do you express your anger? Anger! Bane of my existence. I am a yeller. I have to get it out to feel better. Thankfully, it doesn't happen very often mostly because i stay away from people who rub me the wrong way.

 5)What would you spend your last penny on? A good bra. I think bras are an evil invention to begin with. I'll just stop there. 

6)When was the last time you treated yourself to a niceeeeeee warm food? On Friday afternoon after my exam and after i had successfully convinced myself i failed, i decided to treat myself to some boneless spare ribs and white rice to reward myself for making it through the week. I hardly, if ever eat out or buy food. I like to cook my own meals so that was a treat.

 7) Who was the last person you said "I love you " to? My madre 

8) What is your favourite take away dish? Like i said, i hardly ever eat out (i think i buy food like once or twice a semester). I used to like General Tso's chicken but i haven't had that in years. I'll say boneless spare ribs because i used to be a hardcore carnivore and i'll always be one at heart even though i am limiting my meat intake these days. It's either that or Indian food.

 9) How do you eat in public, spoon, knife, fork or hands, loud, quiet, slow, fast etc? I eat with the appropriate tools for the meal. If it's something i need to eat with my hands, i eat with my hands. If it's something i need a fork and knife, then fork and knife it is. I chew with my mouth closed and eat like someone with home training (not that i think about it or anything. I just eat) 

10)Do you polish your shoes? I don't own any shoes that i have to polish. I mostly wear converse for classes or flats when we have to deal up. 

11)What are your thoughts on after Life? When we die, we are dead. Dust to dust. Heaven and hell are here on earth and some people can testify to that because they are living it :) 

Questions by Myne

1. How many brothers and sisters do you have?
 I have one brother and 4 sisters and 4 half sisters- so 8 sisters.
2. What do you consider as success?
When you have a dream, achieve it and you are living a happy life.
3. Rank Fame, Happiness, Love, Health and Money in order of preference.-
 Health, Happiness, Love, Money
4. Will you go for a PhD degree? God forbid bad thing, not after med school.
5. What kind of books do you like reading? Historical romance novels.
6. What are your hobbies? Blogging, reading novels
7. Chocolate or Ice cream? Ice cream
8. Your best movie and why? My Big Fat Greek Wedding.  I love seeing how things work in a different culture and it was so well done, It never gets old.
9. What do you consider your best trait, personality or physical wise? Personality, although it doesn't hurt to look at my face :)
10. Where did you last go on holiday? Atlanta. If you call going home going on a holiday.
11. If you could be an animal, which would it be? I would be any breed of a Toy breed except a chihuahua. Those things look like oversized rats. Eww!

Questions by Adede

1. Favorite book? I love books too much to have one but i'll say The Concubine. I pick favorites based of something i won't mind reading multiple times.
2. What do you want to be? A world renowned native doctor specializing in herbs, love portions and spiritual cleansing. No need to journey to MFM, just direct all your worries to me and i shall handle it with immediate alacrity. I still dey train sha, so not ready to start work yet.

 3. What do you do in your spare time, if you have any? SLEEP!!!
4. What is something you wish you could be doing right now? Absolutely nothing. I just want to be a bum and not do anything. That's what i wish i could be doing, instead of trying to figure out how to motivate myself to finish First Aid and Uworld.
5. Who or what do you cherish in your life? My family
6. Favorite movie? See Myne's Question 8.
7. Where have you been dreaming of traveling to? Home. I miss my people.
8. Best event attended? I hardly go anywhere, my dear.
9. Why do you blog? To maintain my sanity and i like it.
10. Last trip. When and where? Atlanta, Dec 2011
11. What grinds your gears? Stupid people. Liars.

My question for you guys since i'm not tagging anyone, what do you think are the three most important qualities to have in a life partner? Do you have the qualities you are looking for?

Now that i have officially bummed my way through day one of studying, i bid you guys adieu, until whenever the spirit leads me to pop up/pop in again. I shall have my head firmly buried in First Aid with a health daily dose of Uworld for the next 39 days. I need to get serious with my life. The physical exhaustion is not helping matters, but i refuse to carry last. Some of my classmates have been studying hardcore for weeks now, but they are robots or maybe they are on Adderall or something. I no know. I'm just a regular human being.

Oya, make una answer my question o. I don't want to have to flog anyone. BTW, i changed my name back to Madame Sting. I will still change it again to whatever catches my fancy, maybe Auntie Sting next. What can i say, i'm the P.diddy abi na Diddy of Blogsville.

I'm back again, yea yeah!

So i'm going to clean up a highway tomorrow morning with a few other kids from my school. I'm not even a member of AMA (American Medical Association) but i just want to be outside cos i was stuck in my apartment 5 days straight while studying for finals.. My friend referred to it as prisoner work as she blatantly refused to go with me.

Got an Ipad3 from school last week friday. We got to choose between an Itouch, Ipad2 and Ipad3. If you chose an itouch or Ipad2, then it was free but if u wanted an iPad3, you had to pay $82.25. A lot of us got the iPad3. We were supposed to go home, open it, make sure it works and all of that within 5 days so the school can exchange it for us if defective, after 5 days you have to go to the apple store yourself. Well, it's been over a week, and my stuff is still in the box. Whenever i think of it, it just seems like more work to me so i'm not motivated to open it at all. I think it's too big to use on the wards anyway and i'm going to get my dad to get me an itouch, besides my phone does everything an ipad can do, methinks.

I only got this weekend off and i start board prep on Monday. It took me a whole day to TRY to come up with a study schedule. Still don't have one done yet. Will have to complete it tomorrow.

Ciao Amigos.

My new favorite site : Whatshouldwecallmedschool

Pick One - update

Exams tomorrow and Friday, wish me luck.

Update: Thanks for the well wishes people. Yesterday was WILD.  I will address it in my audio post if i survive :) I decided to take down my survey before someone shows my mother my post and she has a heart attack and kills me herself. LOL. That was just a sample of my thoughts when i'm extremely stressed. I wasn't necessarily joking or being dramatic but at the same time i recognize it for what it is. Stress. I'm not depressed or suicidal, just EXTREMELY stressed.

I don't know which is worse 600+ drugs cumulative for pharm or 8 blocks (4 blocks from last year) cumulative for Path. Our path cumulative final which is on Friday is everything we've learned in path for TWO SEMESTERS. I just can't with these people but i can o cos i no get choose (as my friend would say)

Thank God for Tumblr. I now how a place to vent, rant, say all the crazy things i want to say without the benefit/watchful eye of an audience and it's very convenient too cos i can do it from my phone. It's just like tweeting in private.  I don't think i can share it anymore as it as deteriorated into crazy zone.

I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU GUYS. THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO LEFT A COMMENT INCLUDING MS. IBHADE'S HUBBY :) YOU GUYS ARE THE ABSOLUTE BEST AND I LOVE YOU. NO JOKE.

I love you guys,

Bah bye o. (proof that i am an Edo girl. lol)

Knock knock

Hey guys,

My plan was to "come back" after finals next week. However, i just came back from an informational session with the M4's who are about to be newly minted doctors in 18 days and i got a lot from that session. I wasn't going to go but my Dean roped me into it and i'm glad i went. Most important thing i got from the session was trying to find a balance and having a hobby you are passionate about. It made me think about my blog. I love blogging, been doing this non-stop since Jan 2007. I have to find a balance. Med school has taken over my already non-existent life. I can't give up everything i love.

So i'm opening the blog back up but will not be posting until after finals. I think i'll start back with an audio post. Lots and lots of gist.

I love you guys,

Bye!

P.S. I have a tumblr. It really is the perfect balance between blogger and twitter and i LOVE it. I needed an outlet since i couldn't blog and it has been great. I kind of love having a space that is audience free but i think one or two people might like it and benefit from it. So leave me a comment you if are interested and i'll provide the link. Don't bother searching for it because it is as different from this blog as you can imagine.