On my mind

RELATIONSHIPS

My ex relationship: Soul mate/love of my life. I miss him. Spent the last couple years mad at him. Would probably get married to him if he asked (nicely).

Current relationship: 10 months, only one month longer than the love of my life. I don't love him, if he loves me, he hasn't bothered to share. All around nice guy. Cute face. Broke! Still going strong but my heart's not in it anymore. Comfortable.

Future relationship: Love or money? Right now, i'll go for the money. Has to be a very long distance relationship though.

Thoughts on my idea of relationships: I have evolved and am still evolving in my thinking and it's not for the "better". Depends on ur definition of better.

Right now i'm in a relationship without love or money. At this point, i figure if there's no love, there better be money. I'm a poor student!!!!

LIFE
Med school is HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Day 4 and i'm TIRED! I just got back from the library and my eyes are bloodshot. Yet i'm still behind. 168 pages of genetics handout in 4 days.

Weirdest experience so far: Dissecting a human body. I didn't freak out as much as i thought i would. I guess cos her face is still covered and she's white (different from me) so it hasn't hit home that it's a human body. We just concentrated on her chest, while the rest of her body was covered. After an hour of being there i was hungry as hell and all i could think of was food, while staring at the meaty looking part of the chest. Ewww. lol

Coolest thing so far: One of the groups behind me had a body donor with breast implants. They bursted (sp?) one by mistake (I guess). It was cool to see.

I'm weird. I'm tired. I'm going to bed. Fuck this.

Blogsville Gist

Hey people,

I'm going to be focusing my attention on Blogsville Gist. Be a pal and join the site. Invite your friends/blog pals to join also.

It's time.

Hey Everyone,

The end of my journey on The Smile of a Nigerian Scorpio is here. By this time next week i will be at my new place, ready or not. I know i'll be fine, i just don't like change too much. This last week in Atlanta is turning to be more stressful both mentally and emotionally than i imagined. Anyway, it's been nice being a part of blogsville and sharing my personal story with you guys. I know i haven't been comfortable writing anything too personal on this blog for a while, but it served its purpose and it's time to move on. If i decide to get another blog i'll let you know. For now, i will hopefully be concentrating all my efforts on blogsville gist and fatbusters.

Thanks for being a part of my online family. You guys are great and i love u all.

Peace.

THE END

Sad

I just put an ad for Lenie on craigslist. I am so sad!

Confused.

I took Lenie to the vet today for his yearly shots and ended up spending $241. That was the little extra money i had to buy stuff before i moved. In addition to the shots, they found out he has hook worms. On top of that he already had a skin condition that is as a result of allergies, he has issues with his eyes that will be lasting cos of the way his eye lids are, and he has ear issues, cos he is prone to ear mites. After telling my sister all this, she suggested i take him to the pound. I totally understand that because that might be a little too much to put on anyone esp since she already has 2 dogs.

I am sad and confused.

Journal

Time: 7 days before I move: 21 days before school starts. (Why the hell i am moving early again?!! Yeah, that damn lease (that i haven't even signed. I don't wanna goooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!)
Mood: SCARED/ON THE VERGE OF FREAKING OUT!

So i have been slowly and steadily clearing out my room and getting ready for my 13 hour trip to the place that's going to be my new home for the next 4 years or more (depending on where i do my residency). During the process of sweeping under my bed (let's not talk about all the dust bunnies that reside(d) under there) i pulled out a box i had stuck under there a couple of years ago that contained my journals. There were entries from April 2003 to Sept 2007 in four different journals.

I pulled the first one out and started to read. It was almost like reading a novel and i realised i have to go back to my first true love. Blogger doesn't even come close to what writing in a journal does for me. When i write in my journal, i'm not writing for an audience, i am free to pour out my thoughts without having to give a background story, like i would have to do on blogger. I have always kept a journal. I didn't keep one in JSS when i was in boarding school for obvious reasons. My first complete journal, i remember burning after my first relationship ended at 17 0r 18. I guess because A lot of the stuff i wrote was about him.

I have always used writing as a coping mechanism for me and i intend to go back to that in med school. My sister gave me a very cute journal when i went to Florida and that's exactly what i am going to use it for.

On to other things, i finally got another computer on Friday. HP dv3510nr. I am skeptical about HP products cos my brother had an issue with his computer and eventually had to switch it out with a toshiba. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I took my old gateway to get fixed cos it kept switching itself off, come to find out there was nothing wrong with it in the first place. My dumbass set it to turn off after 20mins. Don't ask me what i was thinking cos i don't know, I remember changing the setting but i don't think i knew what i was doing.

Anyhoo, i get home and my big head decided to re-format the computer only for something to go wrong, and the computer just shows a black screen when i turn it on. I'm taking it to get fixed tomorrow, hopefully they can fix it before i leave and it doesn't cost an arm and a leg. I am so pissed at myself.

Question: How many people believe in spirits or reincarnation?

Would u believe if i told u i was my paternal grandmother reincarnated? How do i know?

I DON'T! but i believe it.

I'll tell u y another time.